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Posted by Ruok On December - 31 - 2010

I guess this is also the full time report.

It’s been an interesting year; a year in which I took a gambit right from the start. And it looks like the gambit has paid off.

The pursuit of one’s dreams is never easy, and I guess I belong to the group who’d chase and chase and never seem to get there. There will always come a time of reckoning, a time to reassess and see if it’s time to seek new directions.

I think that moment arrived for me last year, and so this report is about the result of the decision I made last year.

In terms of missed acting opportunity, I would have to say other than not doing short films for film students and television commercials, I am not any worse off than last year. I have done two roles this year, both very minor ones. I had the misfortune of seeing the first one (Before I Got Awesome), which by my standards I would consider it a most woeful performance. I didn’t get to see my second one (Mrs PI); I hope I did better second time round.

This is a scenario I’ve expected end last year when I was contemplating my decision, and a scenario that has, now, become reality. Just to be clear, I’m not particularly saddened by not doing student short films and television commercials. You can only do so many pro bono-ish short films in one’s career and I’ve done more than my fair share already. As for television commercials, they were mainly to supplement my meager acting income, and I have no great need for that right now.

I have mixed feelings over this though; on the one hand, I am glad I made the right decision. On the other hand, I am saddened that this is probably the death knell that shatters my dreams.

Indeed, it is time for Plan B. And next year I will be proceeding with it (yeah I kinda figured it out already).

Finances wise, I am pleased to report that I have met the financial target I’ve set for myself, sans the purchase of my new home. I do feel a bit woeful that I’m gonna have a big crater of a hole in my savings because of this. But I have to remind myself this is for Plan B and this would constitute my initial investment into this plan.

Moving on and sticking to the analogy of ships and voyages, this year I have accepted the responsibility to run charters for another ship captain. This captain now wants me to fully take over one of his big ships next year. So you can see, it would be even harder for me to take time off and do my own voyage next year. So while my search for my fabled land still continues, it seems I would have to figure a way to discover its location without exploring on my own anymore. That ladies and gentlemen, in a nutshell, is Plan B.

On affairs of the heart, all I can say is that I end off the year the same way I started it : Perfectly Lonely.

I think this song sums it up very well for me :

Happy Nude Year to all my readers. May you strip away your worries and burdens of 2010 and embrace 2011 with high hopes and wonderful inspiration. :)