But don’t feel any wiser.
Its been the first time in quite a few years I’ve worked on my birthday. It was not planned for, a client called me in the mornining and insisted on bringing forward the start date of the project due to some “emergency”. I wasn’t very happy with the client because its not a particularly high paying project and the “emergency” was all of his doing. Nevertheless, poor struggling actor me will have to ‘look the colour of other’s people’s face’ (看人家的脸色) at this juncture, so I grudgingly went and do it.
Older liow. I think this is the first time I’ve really felt older. As I reviewed the injuries I’ve sustained recently and the longer recuperation process it took, I cannot help but feel older. And at this point in my life, I’m quite ashamed to say that I have not much to show for in my life. No career, no assets, unlike the most of my peers. All I have is a dream. And a seemingly fading one at that.
I’ve been told I’m brave, but nowadays, only by my younger friends. My peers used to call me “brave” as well, but they don’t use that term so often these days. If I do meet them, they will ask if I’m still doing the same thing, and how long will I keep at it. You kinda know what they are getting at. And yes, its only brave when I succeed. If not, its just plain foolish.
Older liow. I can only hope I’ll be wiser and not appear so foolish soon.
