My Reelity

Is this the reel life or is this just fantasy?


Posted by Ruok On January - 1 - 2009

That’s what 2008 could be described in a nutshell. It’s been a year of almost-es, in almost every aspect of my life.

It began brightly enough, with me landing a lead role as early as January. It then went steadily, very steadily, downhill after that.

There was of course that big, almost burning the bridges, showdown with a certain station. But my woes had already long begun before that, so I’m pretty sure it had nothing to do with that.

Acting-wise, this year is definitely the slowest so far. Its been a year of near hits mostly; going for auditions and not clinching the roles that I wanted. Getting calls out of the blue saying I was shortlisted for something, but not quite making past the final cut. Its been that sort of a year for me.

That trend kinda spill into other aspects of my life as well. I also almost had a new client, I almost had an article published, I almost got my six-pack … well, you get the idea.

It’s been frustrating as hell, when it seems every corner you turn seems to steer you towards a brick wall.

Still, the irony of it all, is that things could have been far worse.

Despite very few note-worthy performances this year, there seems to be a deluge of re-runs which coincided nicely with the screening of my first TVC. It made me more noticeable; I get stares and looks from people so much that I had to check if my fly was open then.

On the money side of things, I’ve lost projects and gained a few, so the final count at the end of the day is about the same as last year. Not quite what I’ve targeted, but at least I’m not worse off. But the point to note is that I achieved all this in far less time than last year, so much so I really felt I was wasting my last quarter of the year away.

Of course, the grand plan was to do more acting in the last quarter, but in this year of almost-es, my plan was always almost going to succeed. Or fail, depending on whether you are the half-empty or half-full type.

The trend also continues for matters of the heart and I’m gonna leave it as that. 😛

I’ve done all that I’ve could this year to not be a victim of circumstance, and on some occasion, I’ve succeeded but have also failed at other times too. What can I say, I’m only human.

As I looked back on my cherries popping entries, I’m glad I’ve at least managed to pop a few this year. In the words of the great philosopher, you can’t always get what you want.

But if you try sometimes, you just might find, you get something you need.

It has not been a good year for me and when it’s this close to bottom, chances are Oh Nine will be just divine.

And I hope it will turn out divinely for you too, my readers.

Happy New Year!

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