My Reelity

“The picture you see is no portrait of me
It’s too real to be shown to someone I don’t know
And it’s driving me wild
It makes me act like a child”

“Round & Round” – New Order

I hate doing it for the money. But sometimes, the harsh reality of life sets in and you know you can use the money. Of course it doesn’t help that yesterday’s shoot for the corporate video overran and I had to wait for about 2 and a half hours to do a 15 minute shoot. And as I was still trying to recover from my previous bout of flu for an audition (I need my voice, dammit!) today, all this needless waiting naturally doesn’t make me fine company.

The make-up artiste was making small talk and asked if I act for a living.
“I try to act for a living,” was my wry reply. He, like many others, was surprised to find out that I wasn’t under any representation and helpfully suggest that I really should get some, if I wanted to stop trying to act for a living.

I was surprised he didn’t asked me to clap, bang and kiss myself (hehe, can’t help a little dig here, its the virus I tell you :P). But as I had to preserve whats left of my voice, I didn’t really want to explain to him about my stubborn stand, so I just brushed the topic off by saying that its also no guarantee that things will be better under representation. He kinda agreed, saying most of the actors he worked before are also ekking out a living by doing other stuff than just acting.

Having decided I should preserve the rest of my voice, I decided to get into character, so much so that the people around looking at my disposition stopped trying to socialise with me. In the end, I think the lead actor was blown away by my performance, but that was probably because he thought I was just some “extra”…

*sigh* I really hate doing it for the money.