My Reelity

Around this time last year, I was prolly having my best April evar. Parties, free booze, babes etc.

I was also still living the dream; even though it was beginning (what I perceive to be later) its shattered stage.

This year, much has changed and I have put my dreams on hold.

And I’m beginning to see the difference. The reason why you wake up is different. The reason why you sleep is different. The reason why you eat is different. The reason how you motivate yourself to go on living your everyday life is different.

The pursuit of dreams can supplant a lot of our “wants” and “needs”. This is hardly surprising if you look at it from Maslow’s hierarchy; dreams would be at the top of the pyramid. But most folks forget that Maslow’s hierarchy starts with fulfilling the basic needs first, and they also forget what “basic” means in the first place.

Pursuing a dream is all fine and dandy. But what if it doesn’t look like you can reach those lofty heights? What if you can’t find fulfill that self-actualization you crave for after years have gone by?

I think its not illogical to expect that you’ll turn jaded and disillusioned. And depending on the level of jadedness and disillusionment, you might either wallow in self-pity or change your goals/plans.

We are capable of adapting and changing more than we give ourself credit for. It’s how we as a species have survived to this day. But I can’t change you say. Can’t or won’t? There is a difference and “can’t” would put you in the “weaker” chain of the species. We all need a little time of course, but refusing to change or adapt does not increase your odds of survival at all.

I did not let myself become that person. And as I now realise, the only way to keep the dream alive is, ironically, to give it up for the moment. Because jadedness and disillusionment would definitely be the swords to put our dreams to rest.

But if I can defeat the jadedness and disillusionment, I live to dream another day. And that is what I aim to do now.

Happy birthday dude. And welcome to the next level. 😉