My Reelity

Is this the reel life or is this just fantasy?


Posted by Ruok On March - 7 - 2006

Thank you all for your well wishes and encouragement. The role wasn’t as challenging as I thought and the court scene was a real bumper as usual. To cut the long story short, I only spent 15-20 minutes on my scene, while the rest of the shoot (11.5 hours of it), I was acting as a set prop. The reason?

Being one of the accused, the audience needs to see me in the docks whenever the camera pans there. *sigh*

On the set, I met an actor whom I have worked with a few times in the past and when he learnt of my role, he cajoled me on being the bad guy again. I told him that I have actually pushed away quite a number of bad guy roles last year already but to no avail, and his return was that I, having another thing going to feed my stomach, can afford the luxury of turning down roles.

While he was right in a way, it was the way he said it that put me off; the tone in his voice sounded almost envious of me. But why envy me? Had I not too paid my price, paid my dues? Why, do we need to compare our sad stories to see who is more sad?

I know I am not a conventional actor by anyone’s standard. But I let my work and my craft speak for itself. Just because my path is different from other actors out there, doesn’t mean that I’m lesser than any of them. At the very heart of the matter, I consider myself to be the same as, lets say, an actor in New York waiting on tables in between roles. Yes, I’m a “waiter”. But that doesn’t mean I should go and really be one when I can find other roads for me to travel on, right?

On another note, I just got a callback for the gangster role. If I land this role, it will be a small but noticeable supporting role in the movie. I only hope that if I do land it, I can juggle the shoot and the numerous projects that I suddenly find myself swimming in. *gulp*

2 Responses to “Pant”

  1. Qiaoyun says:

    Oh man, those are the worst. 😛 I hate long long scenes involving about half a million people. They take forever to shoot and most of the time you’re background O_o

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